What are my strengths? Where do I see myself in 6 months?
When I my boss asked me those questions, I kept quiet. There were lots of things running though my mind but none of them had anything to do in providing the answers. I just smiled and nodded like a fool. Obviously I hate doing that. It shows that you are just agreeing because you don't know shit. Or you don't understand him. Or you're just a tool.
I need to fix that.
Anywho, the questions bothered me the whole night. I asked my girlfriend/almost wife what are my strengths and her answer was what I feared it might be. She said I'm good in coming up with ideas. And very fast, too. That's because I was trained by Hisham (my ex boss at Dentsu Utama). I was not satisfied. It is for a fact my ex boss didn't do jack. In fact, he just made sure my copy didn't have any grammar mistakes. And I should work on my craft more often. However, he did mention that I come up with ideas pretty fast. The problem is, from my point of view, all the ideas are crap. Of course there's a few good ones here and there but at the end of the day, only a handful of ideas manage to live to see the day.
So here I am, back at one. Still wondering what is my strength.
At first, I thought my strength was in TV. Cuz I love doing TV and I have to say that it's because I was influenced by Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad, my self-proclaimed mentor. In fact, when I first did my Petronas commercial, which had been changed a lot by the film director, I wanted to do more. Not only in ads but also in short film. Which is why I dabbled in scriptwriting for the BMW Shorties. I didn't win but I was proud of the outcome (and damn, I can act).
So let's leave it at that.
Now what are my goals in 6 months? I looked at my boss, still without an answer, wondering when will I figure it out. Today's the third day I've been thinking about it. Nada,zilch, zero, and nothing. I fear my ambition is fleeting away from my body. What happened to that young man who wanted to be the next Yasmin Ahmad? Who wanted to come up with ground-breakin' ads? Who wanted to be Asia's top creative?
Where is that young man?
Did age slowed me down? Is 29 the new 40? I don't know. I don't have the answers. And even though I feel lost, deep down I feel good to know that I can be honest. No longer do I need to act like I know everything. The truth of the matter is this - my knowledge is like a drop of water in a sea of knowledge.
So what are my strengths? Care to tell me?
And where do you guys see me in the next 6 months, 1 year or 2 years?
I welcome all comments. Who knows, I might be able to figure it out and share it with you in my next post.
I need to fix that.
Anywho, the questions bothered me the whole night. I asked my girlfriend/almost wife what are my strengths and her answer was what I feared it might be. She said I'm good in coming up with ideas. And very fast, too. That's because I was trained by Hisham (my ex boss at Dentsu Utama). I was not satisfied. It is for a fact my ex boss didn't do jack. In fact, he just made sure my copy didn't have any grammar mistakes. And I should work on my craft more often. However, he did mention that I come up with ideas pretty fast. The problem is, from my point of view, all the ideas are crap. Of course there's a few good ones here and there but at the end of the day, only a handful of ideas manage to live to see the day.
So here I am, back at one. Still wondering what is my strength.
At first, I thought my strength was in TV. Cuz I love doing TV and I have to say that it's because I was influenced by Allahyarhamah Yasmin Ahmad, my self-proclaimed mentor. In fact, when I first did my Petronas commercial, which had been changed a lot by the film director, I wanted to do more. Not only in ads but also in short film. Which is why I dabbled in scriptwriting for the BMW Shorties. I didn't win but I was proud of the outcome (and damn, I can act).
So let's leave it at that.
Now what are my goals in 6 months? I looked at my boss, still without an answer, wondering when will I figure it out. Today's the third day I've been thinking about it. Nada,zilch, zero, and nothing. I fear my ambition is fleeting away from my body. What happened to that young man who wanted to be the next Yasmin Ahmad? Who wanted to come up with ground-breakin' ads? Who wanted to be Asia's top creative?
Where is that young man?
Did age slowed me down? Is 29 the new 40? I don't know. I don't have the answers. And even though I feel lost, deep down I feel good to know that I can be honest. No longer do I need to act like I know everything. The truth of the matter is this - my knowledge is like a drop of water in a sea of knowledge.
So what are my strengths? Care to tell me?
And where do you guys see me in the next 6 months, 1 year or 2 years?
I welcome all comments. Who knows, I might be able to figure it out and share it with you in my next post.
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