Happy Birthday to Me

The time is 11.19, which means there's forty one minutes before it reaches 12 and I turn 25.

There will be no cakes. There will be no sms wishing me. There will be no one asking me to celebrate my birthday. There will be no surprises of presents. There will be no blowing out candles.

There will only be just me. Sitting in front of my pc, and typing away 29 more minutes on my blog until it reaches 12. Sounds sad? Heh. You may say that because I think it is pathetic too.

Then again, I've never received a proper birthday celebration in my life. To me, if someone remembers my birthday, I'm glad ,but if they don't then...well then I guess they just didn't remember.

Oooh! Someone just sent me the first sms!! Hehe. Koolios!@

Now, the first person to wish me is Elsze from Leo Burnett or an ex-Leo Burnetter. I known her for sometime now until we got kinda close recently. She's a very sweet and nice person, and very insightful too. It's very hard to not get bored with her.

So, here I am with the clock ticking, and the time is now 11.31 pm. Listening to Snow Patrol's "Signal Fire" by Spiderman-3 soundtrack. I waited with my brothers until the end of the movie to actually look at the music credits , so I can download the song, and it was worth the wait.

At this moment, at this pc, there is a certain significant feeling that I'm experiencing right now. I feel happy yet sad at the same time, but I can feel that my face is smiling right now while my eyebrow gives a quizzical shape. Like a confused happy smiley feeling of a sort. So weird.

The time is now 11.41 pm. It's weird that I'm turning 25 now. It almost seemed like yesterday that I just got out of high school at the age of 19 and 6 years whizzed by like a breeze. And as I look back at all those years, I realized I have come a long way to be the man or the person I am today. A man that understands responsibilities, a man that understands love, a man that appreciates nature, a man that is strongly sensitive, a man that has made destiny or fate the way he wants it to be. It's amazing.

How did I get here? heh

I've met amazing, beautiful and great people in the last 6 years now and I'm grateful for the opportunity to know most of them on a very personal basis. Friends nor enemies, it didn't matter because my heart is not filled with anger or revenge but a sense of a quite bliss. Although I'm sure the idea of celebrating one's birthday in front of the pc , and writing down a blog is not fascinating or grand, but I seem to be enjoying this.

Oh, before I forgot to tell you guys, I'm going for MC2 Young Guns this year , to represent my agency ,Dentsu Utama. MC2 basically means Malaysian Creative Circle and they have an award show every year, only this time they have the category of Young Guns for those who have been in the industry for 3 years or less. And guess what? Your boy is one of them! Boom Done! hehe ( i'm taking Ari Gold's catchphrase now)

The time is now 11.50 pm. Only 10 more minutes to go. How time flies.

There's so many things I could type right now, but it won't make sense and it will be illogical, and I don't want to ramble. I just want to make sure you get me, and that what's matters. Am I rambling? hehe

To be frank, I was quite secretive to everyone about my birthday because I didn't want to shout it out unless they were interested to know. I'm not like those people that yells out " Hey Its Muh Birthday! celebrate with me!" but I'm more like the "Oh, my birthday is on this date and so on" which is simple and sweet. I don't make my birthday a big deal but I do make a big deal when it comes to people not appreciating my thoughts and my poetry. I'm very sensitive with that.

So, what will my birthday wish be? Hehe, sorry no cake but I still do have a birthday wish.

I wish I know but at the top of mind right now, I want a companionship. I want to be able to love someone and them loving me back. A different kind of love. A love that I can appreciate and protect and be there on good days and bad days. I want to pledge my undying loyalty to this counterpart of me. A lady that a knight can be with. A lady that inspires the inner soldier of me. A lady that is worth to be given a place in the stars in the sky, and shines the brightest among the rest.

Too much? hehe

11.59. One more minute to go.

Thank you for reading my blog. Thank you to all the people that have given me good comments. Thank you to all the people that I've met.

Peace Out and much Love.

Sincerely
Rae

12.00!! I'm 25 years old now!!